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This is Dickson Shops, ACT


“The Great Beyond”

I’ve watched the stars fall silent from your eyes
All the sights that I have seen
I can’t believe that I believed I wished
That you could see
There’s a new planet in the solar system
There is nothing up my sleeve

I’m pushing an elephant up the stairs
I’m tossing up punch lines that were never there
Over my shoulder a piano falls
Crashing to the ground

In all this talk of time
Talk is fine
But I don’t want to stay around
Why can’t we pantomime, just close our eyes
And sleep sweet dreams
Me and you with wings on our feet

I’m pushing an elephant up the stairs
I’m tossing up punch lines that were never there
Over my shoulder a piano falls
Crashing to the ground

I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great beyond

I want the hummingbirds, the dancing bears
Sweetest dreams of you
I Look into the stars
I Look into the moon

I’m pushing an elephant up the stairs
I’m tossing up punch lines that were never there
Over my shoulder a piano falls
Crashing to the ground

I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great beyond

I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great
Answers from the great, answers

I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great beyond

I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great
Answers from the great, answers

I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great beyond


I just love my Sunday Body Balance class. It’s on at 9am which is early, but truth be told I am an early bird, and Carl brings me in tea at 8am and I can still comfortably get to the class! Only the latest of Saturday nights or being away for the weekend can keep me away.

Today I rode in minus 5 sunshine in my new goose down jacket, very generously bought and given to me by Jack for my birthday. It is simply the warmest thing I have ever worn – it is like wearing a goose doona! And it folds down into a tiny bag, so it will be just amazing for travel.

I think I have mentioned before about standing poses – I think I love all the warrior poses the most – there is such strength and grounding in these stances. More on standing poses. Last week I also did the Wednesday evening class with Nellie that I also love. A completely different instructor puts such a different meaning to the class. Nellie is more descriptive in the poses and in the breathing which I just love. Although I will soon be putting my gym membership on hold for a few months, I will make sure that when I am back I factor more classes into my week.

And a new phone and new synapses being formed as I move form the eyephone to a Galaxy. So far, so great!!


A phone call yesterday from a friend a haven’t seen for a while, and her mention of a “health scare”…I didn’t disclose because she had her own things to talk through, but I have just been through a bit of a *health scare* myself.

Had a mammogram a few weeks back. I have been on yearly mammograms for almost 15 years, so I don’t think too much about them these days (although I still think that the best description of a mammogram is…take all your clothes off your top half, grab a breast, open the fridge and put your breast in, close the fridge door). So I was a little taken aback when I got a phone call on Wednesday afternoon to say that ACT BreastScreen wanted me back for further testing. I made an appointment for the following day and was warned that I would probably be there for 4 hours.

This sort of thing freaks me out as it would anyone, but with a familial history of breast cancer, and in fact, just cancer – I was just in a daze on Thursday. I ended up spending 7 hours in at BreastScreen – having an interview and examination, followed by more mammograms – different ones focusing on the left breast (and specifically the 11 o’clock area), ultrasound followed by a consultation with the surgeon (who flies in on Thursdays for the day from Sydney), and finally a fine needle aspiration (done by a pathologist who came over from Canberra Hospital) to get a sample of the cells. With results to come this morning.

Well everything is fine. Fatty cells that have formed a lump…no idea why. Best be safe. Oh yes.

For Thursdays are ‘call back’ days at BreastScreen in Civic. The day of the week when the women there are all special, for we have all been called back for further testing. All vulnerable. Scared. Freaking out quietly. Or not so quietly. And I ended up being there the longest, so I was thinking the worst.

I usually like to wear my heart on my sleeve and tell it as it is to those around me. But in this case I chose to really only tell a few people – Carl and the children, my sister and a few close friends (and a couple of people who just sensed a vibe). I didn’t want people getting upset for me, it was too early, and it takes so much energy explaining and worrying about people’s feelings. My biggest, biggest fear was telling my parents – I just didn’t want them to go through another nightmare cancer time….so for now – they are safe.

So if I have been a bit distant, sad, preoccupied or just the same (I am pretty good at seeming normal/happy) that’s why…

And I think of those today who have had a horrid prognosis of any sort…and I send you my love and light.

And can I say how beautiful, professional and caring all the BreastScreen staff were? I used to think midwives were the special ones, but I reckon it’s a lot of health professionals…


Missing

08Jul14

a few things…

  • the PIN number to my debit card. I was at Woolies the other day and just had a mental blank. Got the card out and it was like I never ever had a PIN number. I don’t have it recorded anywhere. I know there is a 7 in it, but apart from that…no clue. Will have to rectify this! Luckily I remembered my PIN for my credit card!
  • Jack  – Brazil is so very far away. I hear from him every so often, usually in response to emails I have forwarded on to him…you know interesting mathematics and all. And there are photos on Facebook so I know vaguely where he is. And I miss the lovely Christina – Jack’s girlfriend.
  • time with Miss Iz. I realise with Hannah here (her friend from NZ) that I need to reconnect with her more…so taking positive steps in that direction
  • sun! So have changed my work hours a little. I’m not walking in the morning because it’s too cold and dark, so starting work at 8, working till 4 and then trying to make the most of the hour before it gets dark.
Sun at the end of the street this morning. Riding to work when it's zero degrees!

Sun at the end of the street this morning. Riding to work when it’s zero degrees!

Sun setting from the deck

Sun setting from the deck

Not completely sure how to captive the magic and beauty of bare trees and bushes. Just love. I reckon I could do my photography masters on it – topic chosen :)


Bit too much really going on to blog every day, even though I was making great progress – I am the first to admit that the quality was not there…

There are big things looming, and although I am reasonably OK with it all..there is just so much to do.

Easy to hide – I hibernated yesterday because it was just cold and unpleasant. After going to the farmer’s markets in the morning it really was just the very best of days to be inside.

Today was a different day..again inside, but outside first to get inside. We went to Strathnairn for the very first time. Who knew this place existed? It kind of reminded me of Cuppacumbalong – which used to be a lovely home/gallery near Tharwa. Long since closed and now a farmstay!! Strathnairn was lovely and Jo’s ceramics were just the best – beautiful, quite delicate, almost ethereal – and I say that in spite of the fact that she was the only artist I knew in the Claybodies exhibition.

Then onto the National Museum of Australia – a place I have more than just a passing interest in..as I did PD there when at uni and thinking that the library there would be a most excellent place to work – in the end there were just no opportunities… I hadn’t been to the permanent exhibition for a long time, and really enjoyed it…didn’t even get to bark artists exhibition…although I have heard great things.

so a really lovely day out n about…


Been an interesting day.
Gotta say dismayed by the Peter Greste (and the two other journalists) decision.
Miserable weather and I got soaked even on my short ride home this evening.
Some big projects at work. And possibly a decision or proposal about something….
Carl is away interstate for the evening and Jack seems far away (well he is!), and Iz is caught up with the news that the cafe she works in has a new owner…as of tomorrow.
So admit to hiding under a blanket, drinking Bengal Spice tea, knitting a little and thinking of bed.
But….in the interests of an (admittedly pathetic) quick post – I would love suggestions for my book choice for August.
I want either a classic (Russian – I think maybe Chekov?) or an modern Australian novel, so go! Or something else entirely….

Promise to answer all suggestions.

Gotta go now as hope to be up early to watch Socceroos – delayed at 6am. Can’t do 2am. I need to be articulate tomoz.
x




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